Fitness Blog

I've decided to make another blog all about my fitness jounery :)

Feeling Blessed

          Finally I've found out why things have been so rocky between daniel and I. He hasn't been happy that I've been so busy with school. I am usually at home making sure the house is kept up and taking care of his every need. But with 7 classes 6 days a week I have had barely anytime to be there as an attentive wife. It has been hard for me this semester to juggle home and so much school. I feel like I took way too much on at one time. Some women don't think that a wife should be stuck at home cooking and cleaning and keeping the house. But I knew I wanted to be the kind of wife that puts her families needs first.Call it being a "stay-at-home"say its not a "real job" but to me its the hardest job in the world. No sick days NO vacations 24/7, 7 days a week ,365 days a year. I wouldn't have it any other way and I can't wait to start having childern, taking of them to the best of my ablities. Yes my last post seemed like I was depressed or like I want out of my life as a wife but thats not the case. I would love to run away to the northeast with my husband. when we fight (like a normal women) I feel like I want to be alone. But deep down in my heart I know that I don't want to live without my husband. It gets overwhelming when I realize that most of our decisions in life favor him. I am a navy wife, navy first family second that is how we live. I love supporting my husband, I don't mind putting him first I enjoy doing all of these things. He is an amazing man and I am only human to want to be selfish at times. Daniel and are complete opposite, he loves hip hop and its culture he is an introvert. I on the other hand and a indie folk lover,an enivormentalist ( or atleast i try to be) extremely outgoing an extravert. We complete each other We balance each other out. I love this about us, I guess what I am trying to say is that my life isn't as bad as my overdramatic-self tries to make look. Anyway he wasn't use to being a bit neglated and having school being my priority. In the past he didn't want me to be at home so much. He want me to be a fulltime student and to get a job. I guess now he has realized  what he wants for us as a couple.

     Things have gotten great between us in the past few months We have talked out our differences and We have come to an understanding. Deployment is right around the corner and We want to spend the next few months that We have left enjoying each others company. I dont know how I am going to adapt to being alone for however long he will be gone. But I know that with god on my side and my families support we both can get through this. I have decided that I want to continues to build a better relationship with god. Its so easy to push him away when things aren't going great but I understand that is when I need him the most.I feel like I am ready to devote myself to him because at the end of the day god is truely first. 

    The topic about babies has came up recently in our marriage. I expressed the fact that I want to try and start a family when he gets back and he didn't shoot it down. Babies is a touchy subject for us because We can never be on the same page about it. Daniel has wanted to wait and I have wanted babies since year one. I am greatful that my husband didn't just give in to my requests in the past, We needed this time to grow. We have fought over this subject for years he has always shot it down. So the fact that he is open to it now and had a big smile when I brought it up has me extremely happy and excited. I guess We will see what happens when the time comes. I can't wait to become a mother, ever since highschool all I wanted was a husband and childern. I was never a career driven women, being a housewife was my dream. Yes I am going to school because I want to educate myself and I do want a career. But I will not compromise my dutys at home for any of it. I did for school and I realized that its really not what I want. I love dance and I want to continue to grow and learn from it, maybe even teach one day. But my true passion is with animals I want to work with artic animals endanger/threatened species. I am still trying to figure what degree fits me.

     I started insanity workout today with my friend Alexa and I am confident that I will continue until the 60 days are up and more. I am so committed to losing weight and bettering myself and I am happy that I finally have the motavation to do so.

      Its funny how people come into your life and try to ruin it. they are out to hurt you and expect you to dewell on them and the pain that they caused and their actions. Someone came into my life and tried to destory it but it backfired. Things only got better with my husband and it has made us so much stronger. it felt great to hear him tell me that all of that mess just made him realize that he only wants to be with me.We have learned so many lessons and we have grown so much in the past few months. Our marriage is amazing and nothing will ever break us or tear us apart. It feels amazing to hear my husband say that these past few months have been the happiest of his life, that he can't picture his life without me and that I will always have his heart. He wrote me a letter and something that he said really touched my heart he said"I will always fight for you. Always and forever until my last breathe leaves this body". He also said that I am the best wife a husband can have. I love that he not only said this stuff and much more to me but has followed through with all of it and has mad me feel so amazing. He has shown me how much I really mean to him. God works in crazy ways he has blessed us and opened our eyes to the things We needed. I am so greatful for him, I can't wait to see what my future has in store, I can't wait to have babies!!!! So now deployment is a hurdle that we have to get through so please pray for us to have strenght.
Camla

Concert Week

      So its concert week we had our first show last night all of growth group and Daniel came to watch me. We went out for ice cream after the show which was nice I got flowers from all of them. I've been working really hard the past few weeks with rehearsals and class time. I've had no time to really spend with danny before he leaves for work stuff. I've made some new friends well I've started talking to more people it still sucks being the new girl no one wants to get to know the new girl. I'm going back to florida in Aug. I wont be here long. My best friend Yeliann is moving to Georgia and I dont really have any other friends that I hang out with alot. So I'm going to be a loner in June Daniel will be gone for work related stuff for the month. I've been blogging alot about starting to get fit and I've been starting then giving up, well last week I was super dedicated then this week concert took over I've had zero free time to hit the gym. But once monday comes around i'm going to start hitting the gym once in the morning for a small 30min workout and at noon I'll start the insanity workout. It is super hard its 60 days long I really want to commit to it I haven't commited to a workout for atleast a year I know my body won't change unless I commit to losing weight. thats my new goal is to commit to my workouts. I'm ready to better myself and work hard to reach my crazy goal.
Camla

Hot Chocolate 5k & 15k

I did it and I'm so proud of myself I ran a 5k and finished in 36 mins which isn't that bad considering I walked a few times. There were so many hills steep hills I have been training on the treadmil with no incline so I wasn't expecting hill. I think if i was running outdoors more my time would have been alot better but I will be registering for another 5k very soon. So I've decided to start running home from school on mons and weds and running to school on fridays its only 3.9 miles which is pretty much what I run on the treadmil i feel I'm killing two birds with one stone cuz I get my workout in and I get home. Earth hour is right around the corner I'm really excited for it I've pretty much forced my  husband to join me. The month of march is almost over :( which means we are one more month closer to deployment time. I know I can do this but it just sucks to be away from my husband for so long. I am making a scrapbook for him for so when he gets lonely he can open it and it remind him of home. I'm I'm 3 concert pieces for school I tried out for one and I actually made it the other two are class pieces so I didnt have to audition. I'm excited for the concert I hopefully my husband will be able to come and watch.
Camla

March 25th Running a 5k

I finally got serious about training for this 5k and it feels good. I'm not as out of shape as I thought I was which is a good thing. I've been trying to find the motavation to workout and eat right and finally start losing this weight. I started training yesterday and I went to the gym today as well. I just have to stay focused and keep on going. My diet is better I'm not really on a diet but I'm not eating watever I want either.I'm trying to get my 5k time down to 9 min miles which is okay considering I'm at about an 11 min mile. School is crazy and taking up all my time from Mon-Sat. I'm in the spring concert doing a modern piece and I love it. I'm excited to see the out come of this dance and I am almost excited to see how much my body has changed by the time we do the concert hopefully I stick with this workout and healthy eating until I reach my goal which is 120 so I need to lose about 43 pounds. The puppy is doing great still trying to potty train him though.I decided to start wearing heels more, I love heels but I never wear them because my husband is an inch shorter then me.When I wear heels I look like a giant next to him. But I guess I should wear my heels with confidents because I have amazing long legs they look great with heels. Well I start reading the hunger games tonight becauses of my husband he read all 3 and has been begging me to join the club.
Camla

Updated.

So my dog is sick,school is crazy busy,I've been lazy on training for the 5k( I will be starting soon thought!) and I got my wisdom teeth pulled last thrusday.

heres some fun puppy pics

Camla

Our new addition

   Valentines day is my wedding anniversary so I got my husband the kindle fire since my parents bought me a kindle my husband has been using mine. So I bought him his own we stayed in and just hung out at home. The next day we went to the mall and he bought me a puppy we named him yeshua it's Jesus in Hebrew it means "to rescue" "to deliver". I love him so much it feels good to have a puppy I feel like we are a family. Like we took a huge step in our lives together. Although we didn't do anything to celebrate it was still a great day and I couldn't stop smiling. Well I haven't been training as hard as I should for the 5k coming up next month but that's all about to change. I've planned out a training schedule. I'm almost do a 40 day diet that it's vegan which I haven't fully committed to well I haven't eaten meat in a while I have been completely healthy. I feel like I'm ready to fully commit and so I will be food shopping soon. I update on how things are going with it I don't miss meat at all which is weird because I used to love meat. School is great I love it I'll post on it later cuz I have to head to class.

Camla