Deployment and Updates

So deployment has been hard and it sucks. nothing really new I'll be back to blogging as soon at I'm in california but I will be posting photos for the holidays :) stay tuned.
Camla

Things are Changing in the Caballero House

       After I came home from bible study last night my husband expressed to me that he really want to get his walk right with God. He also apologized to me for not trying sooner. Even thought we had this talk in florida right before We came home I did most of the talking (like always). So I didn't know where he stood with all of it and I wasn't sure if He was really on board. Hearing that from him felt amazing and I can't wait to see all the changes God is going to bring in his life. I've been focusing on my walk with God a lot lately in the past few days. I'm loving every min. of it I'm so happy and excited to see all that God has in store for me and I am determine to not turn my back on God for the world. I have been doing bible study with my friend from church Lacey once a week and last year I was doing a devotational Power of a Postive Wife with my friend Des. since she left to CO we stopped doing it so I've decided to start that devotional again once a week. I'm excited to start this book again and I will be updating things in the faith portion of this blog like I was doing last year. Other then that nothing new has been going on. if you want to hear about my fitness you can check out my fitness blog http://kkhhhjgfgdx.blogspot.com/  ( yes I know the url is dumb it, wouldn't let me save anything else I thought of.)


Camla
P.S.
I will be posting recipes once a week of meals i make at home.

Pre deployment leave

        So I'm back in Orlando Florida for Danny's vacation before he deploys. Although it feels great seeing family,it's hard splitting time between them. Not to mention they live down the street from each other. I can honestly say that I am dreading going home while he deploys.. I'm so use to living alone and cleaning and cook when, how and what I wanted. Its going to be hard living in someones house under their rules. I feel like this is just the beginning not to mention my weight has been the topic amung my family since I stepped off the plane.

           So last month Daniel and I spend all of our free time hanging out with his friends and drinking. I'm so Dissappointed in that all I wanted to do was be alone with him and spend time with him. Because I knew after we got back from Florida he wouldn't have time for me. But he didn't care and he choose to do whatever he wanted. Me being me I went along with it because I'd rather be with him even if I'm at a party. As a married Christian women I feel like I've abandoned my morals to please my husband. Thats not me I hate being like that it's immature and wrong. I'm not saying drinking and getting together is wrong. I'm just saying getting drunk and partying is not what I want in my life and in my marriage. I need to get focused back on track and fully devote myself to the lord.There has been this fire in my heart longing to do that it I have been ignoring it for my husband. That is going to change I'm so ready to turn a new leaf. Hopefully this next month in a half I can focus on my relationship with the lord and bettering myself inside and out. I'm ready for a change. I've decided to make a workout blog just to talk about my daily struggles and my triumphs in fitness. I can't wait to begin that.
 Camla

Fitness Blog

I've decided to make another blog all about my fitness jounery :)

Feeling Blessed

          Finally I've found out why things have been so rocky between daniel and I. He hasn't been happy that I've been so busy with school. I am usually at home making sure the house is kept up and taking care of his every need. But with 7 classes 6 days a week I have had barely anytime to be there as an attentive wife. It has been hard for me this semester to juggle home and so much school. I feel like I took way too much on at one time. Some women don't think that a wife should be stuck at home cooking and cleaning and keeping the house. But I knew I wanted to be the kind of wife that puts her families needs first.Call it being a "stay-at-home"say its not a "real job" but to me its the hardest job in the world. No sick days NO vacations 24/7, 7 days a week ,365 days a year. I wouldn't have it any other way and I can't wait to start having childern, taking of them to the best of my ablities. Yes my last post seemed like I was depressed or like I want out of my life as a wife but thats not the case. I would love to run away to the northeast with my husband. when we fight (like a normal women) I feel like I want to be alone. But deep down in my heart I know that I don't want to live without my husband. It gets overwhelming when I realize that most of our decisions in life favor him. I am a navy wife, navy first family second that is how we live. I love supporting my husband, I don't mind putting him first I enjoy doing all of these things. He is an amazing man and I am only human to want to be selfish at times. Daniel and are complete opposite, he loves hip hop and its culture he is an introvert. I on the other hand and a indie folk lover,an enivormentalist ( or atleast i try to be) extremely outgoing an extravert. We complete each other We balance each other out. I love this about us, I guess what I am trying to say is that my life isn't as bad as my overdramatic-self tries to make look. Anyway he wasn't use to being a bit neglated and having school being my priority. In the past he didn't want me to be at home so much. He want me to be a fulltime student and to get a job. I guess now he has realized  what he wants for us as a couple.

     Things have gotten great between us in the past few months We have talked out our differences and We have come to an understanding. Deployment is right around the corner and We want to spend the next few months that We have left enjoying each others company. I dont know how I am going to adapt to being alone for however long he will be gone. But I know that with god on my side and my families support we both can get through this. I have decided that I want to continues to build a better relationship with god. Its so easy to push him away when things aren't going great but I understand that is when I need him the most.I feel like I am ready to devote myself to him because at the end of the day god is truely first. 

    The topic about babies has came up recently in our marriage. I expressed the fact that I want to try and start a family when he gets back and he didn't shoot it down. Babies is a touchy subject for us because We can never be on the same page about it. Daniel has wanted to wait and I have wanted babies since year one. I am greatful that my husband didn't just give in to my requests in the past, We needed this time to grow. We have fought over this subject for years he has always shot it down. So the fact that he is open to it now and had a big smile when I brought it up has me extremely happy and excited. I guess We will see what happens when the time comes. I can't wait to become a mother, ever since highschool all I wanted was a husband and childern. I was never a career driven women, being a housewife was my dream. Yes I am going to school because I want to educate myself and I do want a career. But I will not compromise my dutys at home for any of it. I did for school and I realized that its really not what I want. I love dance and I want to continue to grow and learn from it, maybe even teach one day. But my true passion is with animals I want to work with artic animals endanger/threatened species. I am still trying to figure what degree fits me.

     I started insanity workout today with my friend Alexa and I am confident that I will continue until the 60 days are up and more. I am so committed to losing weight and bettering myself and I am happy that I finally have the motavation to do so.

      Its funny how people come into your life and try to ruin it. they are out to hurt you and expect you to dewell on them and the pain that they caused and their actions. Someone came into my life and tried to destory it but it backfired. Things only got better with my husband and it has made us so much stronger. it felt great to hear him tell me that all of that mess just made him realize that he only wants to be with me.We have learned so many lessons and we have grown so much in the past few months. Our marriage is amazing and nothing will ever break us or tear us apart. It feels amazing to hear my husband say that these past few months have been the happiest of his life, that he can't picture his life without me and that I will always have his heart. He wrote me a letter and something that he said really touched my heart he said"I will always fight for you. Always and forever until my last breathe leaves this body". He also said that I am the best wife a husband can have. I love that he not only said this stuff and much more to me but has followed through with all of it and has mad me feel so amazing. He has shown me how much I really mean to him. God works in crazy ways he has blessed us and opened our eyes to the things We needed. I am so greatful for him, I can't wait to see what my future has in store, I can't wait to have babies!!!! So now deployment is a hurdle that we have to get through so please pray for us to have strenght.
Camla

Concert Week

      So its concert week we had our first show last night all of growth group and Daniel came to watch me. We went out for ice cream after the show which was nice I got flowers from all of them. I've been working really hard the past few weeks with rehearsals and class time. I've had no time to really spend with danny before he leaves for work stuff. I've made some new friends well I've started talking to more people it still sucks being the new girl no one wants to get to know the new girl. I'm going back to florida in Aug. I wont be here long. My best friend Yeliann is moving to Georgia and I dont really have any other friends that I hang out with alot. So I'm going to be a loner in June Daniel will be gone for work related stuff for the month. I've been blogging alot about starting to get fit and I've been starting then giving up, well last week I was super dedicated then this week concert took over I've had zero free time to hit the gym. But once monday comes around i'm going to start hitting the gym once in the morning for a small 30min workout and at noon I'll start the insanity workout. It is super hard its 60 days long I really want to commit to it I haven't commited to a workout for atleast a year I know my body won't change unless I commit to losing weight. thats my new goal is to commit to my workouts. I'm ready to better myself and work hard to reach my crazy goal.
Camla

Hot Chocolate 5k & 15k

I did it and I'm so proud of myself I ran a 5k and finished in 36 mins which isn't that bad considering I walked a few times. There were so many hills steep hills I have been training on the treadmil with no incline so I wasn't expecting hill. I think if i was running outdoors more my time would have been alot better but I will be registering for another 5k very soon. So I've decided to start running home from school on mons and weds and running to school on fridays its only 3.9 miles which is pretty much what I run on the treadmil i feel I'm killing two birds with one stone cuz I get my workout in and I get home. Earth hour is right around the corner I'm really excited for it I've pretty much forced my  husband to join me. The month of march is almost over :( which means we are one more month closer to deployment time. I know I can do this but it just sucks to be away from my husband for so long. I am making a scrapbook for him for so when he gets lonely he can open it and it remind him of home. I'm I'm 3 concert pieces for school I tried out for one and I actually made it the other two are class pieces so I didnt have to audition. I'm excited for the concert I hopefully my husband will be able to come and watch.
Camla