Pre deployment leave

        So I'm back in Orlando Florida for Danny's vacation before he deploys. Although it feels great seeing family,it's hard splitting time between them. Not to mention they live down the street from each other. I can honestly say that I am dreading going home while he deploys.. I'm so use to living alone and cleaning and cook when, how and what I wanted. Its going to be hard living in someones house under their rules. I feel like this is just the beginning not to mention my weight has been the topic amung my family since I stepped off the plane.

           So last month Daniel and I spend all of our free time hanging out with his friends and drinking. I'm so Dissappointed in that all I wanted to do was be alone with him and spend time with him. Because I knew after we got back from Florida he wouldn't have time for me. But he didn't care and he choose to do whatever he wanted. Me being me I went along with it because I'd rather be with him even if I'm at a party. As a married Christian women I feel like I've abandoned my morals to please my husband. Thats not me I hate being like that it's immature and wrong. I'm not saying drinking and getting together is wrong. I'm just saying getting drunk and partying is not what I want in my life and in my marriage. I need to get focused back on track and fully devote myself to the lord.There has been this fire in my heart longing to do that it I have been ignoring it for my husband. That is going to change I'm so ready to turn a new leaf. Hopefully this next month in a half I can focus on my relationship with the lord and bettering myself inside and out. I'm ready for a change. I've decided to make a workout blog just to talk about my daily struggles and my triumphs in fitness. I can't wait to begin that.
 Camla