Deployment and Updates

So deployment has been hard and it sucks. nothing really new I'll be back to blogging as soon at I'm in california but I will be posting photos for the holidays :) stay tuned.
Camla

Things are Changing in the Caballero House

       After I came home from bible study last night my husband expressed to me that he really want to get his walk right with God. He also apologized to me for not trying sooner. Even thought we had this talk in florida right before We came home I did most of the talking (like always). So I didn't know where he stood with all of it and I wasn't sure if He was really on board. Hearing that from him felt amazing and I can't wait to see all the changes God is going to bring in his life. I've been focusing on my walk with God a lot lately in the past few days. I'm loving every min. of it I'm so happy and excited to see all that God has in store for me and I am determine to not turn my back on God for the world. I have been doing bible study with my friend from church Lacey once a week and last year I was doing a devotational Power of a Postive Wife with my friend Des. since she left to CO we stopped doing it so I've decided to start that devotional again once a week. I'm excited to start this book again and I will be updating things in the faith portion of this blog like I was doing last year. Other then that nothing new has been going on. if you want to hear about my fitness you can check out my fitness blog http://kkhhhjgfgdx.blogspot.com/  ( yes I know the url is dumb it, wouldn't let me save anything else I thought of.)


Camla
P.S.
I will be posting recipes once a week of meals i make at home.

Pre deployment leave

        So I'm back in Orlando Florida for Danny's vacation before he deploys. Although it feels great seeing family,it's hard splitting time between them. Not to mention they live down the street from each other. I can honestly say that I am dreading going home while he deploys.. I'm so use to living alone and cleaning and cook when, how and what I wanted. Its going to be hard living in someones house under their rules. I feel like this is just the beginning not to mention my weight has been the topic amung my family since I stepped off the plane.

           So last month Daniel and I spend all of our free time hanging out with his friends and drinking. I'm so Dissappointed in that all I wanted to do was be alone with him and spend time with him. Because I knew after we got back from Florida he wouldn't have time for me. But he didn't care and he choose to do whatever he wanted. Me being me I went along with it because I'd rather be with him even if I'm at a party. As a married Christian women I feel like I've abandoned my morals to please my husband. Thats not me I hate being like that it's immature and wrong. I'm not saying drinking and getting together is wrong. I'm just saying getting drunk and partying is not what I want in my life and in my marriage. I need to get focused back on track and fully devote myself to the lord.There has been this fire in my heart longing to do that it I have been ignoring it for my husband. That is going to change I'm so ready to turn a new leaf. Hopefully this next month in a half I can focus on my relationship with the lord and bettering myself inside and out. I'm ready for a change. I've decided to make a workout blog just to talk about my daily struggles and my triumphs in fitness. I can't wait to begin that.
 Camla

Fitness Blog

I've decided to make another blog all about my fitness jounery :)

Feeling Blessed

          Finally I've found out why things have been so rocky between daniel and I. He hasn't been happy that I've been so busy with school. I am usually at home making sure the house is kept up and taking care of his every need. But with 7 classes 6 days a week I have had barely anytime to be there as an attentive wife. It has been hard for me this semester to juggle home and so much school. I feel like I took way too much on at one time. Some women don't think that a wife should be stuck at home cooking and cleaning and keeping the house. But I knew I wanted to be the kind of wife that puts her families needs first.Call it being a "stay-at-home"say its not a "real job" but to me its the hardest job in the world. No sick days NO vacations 24/7, 7 days a week ,365 days a year. I wouldn't have it any other way and I can't wait to start having childern, taking of them to the best of my ablities. Yes my last post seemed like I was depressed or like I want out of my life as a wife but thats not the case. I would love to run away to the northeast with my husband. when we fight (like a normal women) I feel like I want to be alone. But deep down in my heart I know that I don't want to live without my husband. It gets overwhelming when I realize that most of our decisions in life favor him. I am a navy wife, navy first family second that is how we live. I love supporting my husband, I don't mind putting him first I enjoy doing all of these things. He is an amazing man and I am only human to want to be selfish at times. Daniel and are complete opposite, he loves hip hop and its culture he is an introvert. I on the other hand and a indie folk lover,an enivormentalist ( or atleast i try to be) extremely outgoing an extravert. We complete each other We balance each other out. I love this about us, I guess what I am trying to say is that my life isn't as bad as my overdramatic-self tries to make look. Anyway he wasn't use to being a bit neglated and having school being my priority. In the past he didn't want me to be at home so much. He want me to be a fulltime student and to get a job. I guess now he has realized  what he wants for us as a couple.

     Things have gotten great between us in the past few months We have talked out our differences and We have come to an understanding. Deployment is right around the corner and We want to spend the next few months that We have left enjoying each others company. I dont know how I am going to adapt to being alone for however long he will be gone. But I know that with god on my side and my families support we both can get through this. I have decided that I want to continues to build a better relationship with god. Its so easy to push him away when things aren't going great but I understand that is when I need him the most.I feel like I am ready to devote myself to him because at the end of the day god is truely first. 

    The topic about babies has came up recently in our marriage. I expressed the fact that I want to try and start a family when he gets back and he didn't shoot it down. Babies is a touchy subject for us because We can never be on the same page about it. Daniel has wanted to wait and I have wanted babies since year one. I am greatful that my husband didn't just give in to my requests in the past, We needed this time to grow. We have fought over this subject for years he has always shot it down. So the fact that he is open to it now and had a big smile when I brought it up has me extremely happy and excited. I guess We will see what happens when the time comes. I can't wait to become a mother, ever since highschool all I wanted was a husband and childern. I was never a career driven women, being a housewife was my dream. Yes I am going to school because I want to educate myself and I do want a career. But I will not compromise my dutys at home for any of it. I did for school and I realized that its really not what I want. I love dance and I want to continue to grow and learn from it, maybe even teach one day. But my true passion is with animals I want to work with artic animals endanger/threatened species. I am still trying to figure what degree fits me.

     I started insanity workout today with my friend Alexa and I am confident that I will continue until the 60 days are up and more. I am so committed to losing weight and bettering myself and I am happy that I finally have the motavation to do so.

      Its funny how people come into your life and try to ruin it. they are out to hurt you and expect you to dewell on them and the pain that they caused and their actions. Someone came into my life and tried to destory it but it backfired. Things only got better with my husband and it has made us so much stronger. it felt great to hear him tell me that all of that mess just made him realize that he only wants to be with me.We have learned so many lessons and we have grown so much in the past few months. Our marriage is amazing and nothing will ever break us or tear us apart. It feels amazing to hear my husband say that these past few months have been the happiest of his life, that he can't picture his life without me and that I will always have his heart. He wrote me a letter and something that he said really touched my heart he said"I will always fight for you. Always and forever until my last breathe leaves this body". He also said that I am the best wife a husband can have. I love that he not only said this stuff and much more to me but has followed through with all of it and has mad me feel so amazing. He has shown me how much I really mean to him. God works in crazy ways he has blessed us and opened our eyes to the things We needed. I am so greatful for him, I can't wait to see what my future has in store, I can't wait to have babies!!!! So now deployment is a hurdle that we have to get through so please pray for us to have strenght.
Camla

Concert Week

      So its concert week we had our first show last night all of growth group and Daniel came to watch me. We went out for ice cream after the show which was nice I got flowers from all of them. I've been working really hard the past few weeks with rehearsals and class time. I've had no time to really spend with danny before he leaves for work stuff. I've made some new friends well I've started talking to more people it still sucks being the new girl no one wants to get to know the new girl. I'm going back to florida in Aug. I wont be here long. My best friend Yeliann is moving to Georgia and I dont really have any other friends that I hang out with alot. So I'm going to be a loner in June Daniel will be gone for work related stuff for the month. I've been blogging alot about starting to get fit and I've been starting then giving up, well last week I was super dedicated then this week concert took over I've had zero free time to hit the gym. But once monday comes around i'm going to start hitting the gym once in the morning for a small 30min workout and at noon I'll start the insanity workout. It is super hard its 60 days long I really want to commit to it I haven't commited to a workout for atleast a year I know my body won't change unless I commit to losing weight. thats my new goal is to commit to my workouts. I'm ready to better myself and work hard to reach my crazy goal.
Camla

Hot Chocolate 5k & 15k

I did it and I'm so proud of myself I ran a 5k and finished in 36 mins which isn't that bad considering I walked a few times. There were so many hills steep hills I have been training on the treadmil with no incline so I wasn't expecting hill. I think if i was running outdoors more my time would have been alot better but I will be registering for another 5k very soon. So I've decided to start running home from school on mons and weds and running to school on fridays its only 3.9 miles which is pretty much what I run on the treadmil i feel I'm killing two birds with one stone cuz I get my workout in and I get home. Earth hour is right around the corner I'm really excited for it I've pretty much forced my  husband to join me. The month of march is almost over :( which means we are one more month closer to deployment time. I know I can do this but it just sucks to be away from my husband for so long. I am making a scrapbook for him for so when he gets lonely he can open it and it remind him of home. I'm I'm 3 concert pieces for school I tried out for one and I actually made it the other two are class pieces so I didnt have to audition. I'm excited for the concert I hopefully my husband will be able to come and watch.
Camla

March 25th Running a 5k

I finally got serious about training for this 5k and it feels good. I'm not as out of shape as I thought I was which is a good thing. I've been trying to find the motavation to workout and eat right and finally start losing this weight. I started training yesterday and I went to the gym today as well. I just have to stay focused and keep on going. My diet is better I'm not really on a diet but I'm not eating watever I want either.I'm trying to get my 5k time down to 9 min miles which is okay considering I'm at about an 11 min mile. School is crazy and taking up all my time from Mon-Sat. I'm in the spring concert doing a modern piece and I love it. I'm excited to see the out come of this dance and I am almost excited to see how much my body has changed by the time we do the concert hopefully I stick with this workout and healthy eating until I reach my goal which is 120 so I need to lose about 43 pounds. The puppy is doing great still trying to potty train him though.I decided to start wearing heels more, I love heels but I never wear them because my husband is an inch shorter then me.When I wear heels I look like a giant next to him. But I guess I should wear my heels with confidents because I have amazing long legs they look great with heels. Well I start reading the hunger games tonight becauses of my husband he read all 3 and has been begging me to join the club.
Camla

Updated.

So my dog is sick,school is crazy busy,I've been lazy on training for the 5k( I will be starting soon thought!) and I got my wisdom teeth pulled last thrusday.

heres some fun puppy pics

Camla

Our new addition

   Valentines day is my wedding anniversary so I got my husband the kindle fire since my parents bought me a kindle my husband has been using mine. So I bought him his own we stayed in and just hung out at home. The next day we went to the mall and he bought me a puppy we named him yeshua it's Jesus in Hebrew it means "to rescue" "to deliver". I love him so much it feels good to have a puppy I feel like we are a family. Like we took a huge step in our lives together. Although we didn't do anything to celebrate it was still a great day and I couldn't stop smiling. Well I haven't been training as hard as I should for the 5k coming up next month but that's all about to change. I've planned out a training schedule. I'm almost do a 40 day diet that it's vegan which I haven't fully committed to well I haven't eaten meat in a while I have been completely healthy. I feel like I'm ready to fully commit and so I will be food shopping soon. I update on how things are going with it I don't miss meat at all which is weird because I used to love meat. School is great I love it I'll post on it later cuz I have to head to class.

Camla

Going Green

So I've made some life changes lately with the cleaning supplies I use and the way i shop for food and the kind of food i shop for. I'm in the processes of buying recycling bins so we can start throw our trash out right I've also been buying recycled porducts.I've also been turning off and unplugging unused light or the water. and now I am biking to school I feel like I'm doing my part to help save our planet. I'm excited about  doing earth hour ill probably take a few pictures with my iphone. i still haven't joined a marathon yet but hopefully by next paycheck i can enter one. I start school and growth group devotionals on monday so I'm excited bout. I'll keep yall updated :)
Camla

Earth Hour 2012(I'm participating in this & you should join me)

New Growth Group

So I should be in church right now but I don't feel well and my husband is watching the football game and refuses to go until its over. So the caballeros will be going to the night service. These past few days have been fun we have been pretty lazy lately just watching movies enjoying my husbands weekend off. We went to sushi with some of his friends from his command and yesterday I went to  church for the military breakfast they have monthly but this time it was for wives only. It was about health and fitness which I needed. I signed up for the devoted bodies growth group. I'm also in the same growth group I was in last quarter for young couples. They are on two different nights. I didn't know I was sitting next to my growth group leader during the breakfast so it was fun to chat. I'm excited to have a lot of time for myself doing things for myself to better myself. I also decided to start cooking new meals that I never made before at least one new meal a week so it doesn't cost so much to make. I want to be able to cook breakfast lunch and dinner for my husband not just dinner lol I want to be really good cook with a lot of variety. I want to have some kind of bake good in my house weekly and make homemade juice so I know what's going in my food. I'm excited about growth group devoted bodies because it will keep me motivated to stay on track with my workout and exercise. Have other ladies to keep track with or maybe even find some workout buddies. Plus I'm adding good into that part of y life which is awesome. I'm gonna be super busy starting the 23rd because I start school and growth groups. My husband will be back at the company (he has been TAD at the hospital ) so life will be moving very fast. Yesterday I spent sometime with my friend Yeliann after the breakfast we when to a movie and lunch and some shopping it was fun to  be around a good friend. I'm excited to get fit and healthy by the time summer gets here I can wear all the cute clothes and not feel weird being at the beach. Sorry I didn't write the past two days I will do better to stay updating and to bring more topics to this blog. 
Camla

Stomach aches suck

Last night I did not want to work out at all. But I dragged myself to the gym last night and did some cardio. I felt weak and unenergized. Today I was suppose to go but my stomach started to hurt a lot. I've been taking these diet pills called oxyelite and they take away my hunger and they are fat burner it's suppose to boost my metabolize and it has.  But I am suppose to drink a lot of water while taking it which I haven't been doing so it hurt my stomach. So I had zero desire to hit the gym.  I need to find the motivation to get back in the gym and watch my diet closely. I haven't really been eating a lot but what I do eat isn't good for me. So tomorrow I hope to do better I need to do better. I will do better. 
Camla 

Who am I?

I was watching super soul sunday on oprah's OWN Chanel. It made me think about myself andy life and what makes me happy. I've decided to find out what makes me happy and who I am. So this year I want to buy a bike and try to use my car less. I want to start running so I am going to start with a 5k I've been looking online to see how and which ones I want to register to. I am also getting a new tattoo of a dream catcher on my right should on my back. It symbolizes all the bad things that have happened to me in the year 2011 and how the dream catcher is there to keep the bad out and let only the good in. I know it's for bad dreams but I don't care lol. I want to start volunteering giving my time for others and maybe one day eventually go on a missions trip with my church. God put us on this planet to spread his word and teach the world about him. I haven't really been doing that of couarse I've developed my own relationship with god but have I help anyone else come to him? Am I trying my best to live the life god calls me to live and not conform to the ways of the world? I want to change some of the ways I've been living my life. I want to make a healthier mind body and soul life change. And I want to live to serve god. I want all these life changed I want to e the women god calls me to be to but others first. To love the world as he loves it. I want to be that proverbs 31 women for my husband and be a good mother I my children whenever I get blessed with some. This is my wish for myself this year to open my mind and heart.
Camla

Updated

I've decided to make a new years resolution but like a monthly goal kinda of thing so for this month of january my goals are:
goal weight by the end of the month 149
hitting the gym monday-friday
get a tattoo
get a dog
focus on school
give 100% to my husband
include prayer,worship and the word of god in my life daily
be the best version of myself
start crafting
i guess i will be updating on how I'm going with my goal i have lost about 13 pounds since novmber so I'm happy that I am making progress. well here some photos of daniel and I recently took
Camla

I'm back for good :)

Sorry I've been MIA for the past few months. My life has been turned upside down and I had to take time away from the blog. I've was going through a lot of problems but it's a new year and I'm ready to get back to blogging I've decided to post everyday. I will be writing another blog later tonight do goodbye for now.
Camla